valentine's day

it's valentine's day a week from today
and already
i'm preparing myself for the torment of that day.

that excruciating day
S.A.D.

where lovers flaunt themselves,
and those like me are left to mourn the life i have not yet lead in some small space..

why can't you love me the way that i love you?

collect the scraps of paper that i throw..
talk to the people that i talk to..
eat the lunch that i eat..
schedule your schedule around mine..
play the sports that i play..
buy the same coffee that i buy..
sing the songs from the soundtracks of the movies that i like to watch..
wallpaper your room with my favorite color..

things like that.
simple things..
things that show that you DO love me..

even if you don't know who i am.