walk past

you walked right passed me today..

i could smell the Palmolive Anti-Dandruff shampoo wafting off your head..

everything about you is adorable..
the way you swing your arms when you walk..
the way you walk..
the way you bob your head as you listen to your ipod..
the way your ipod is attached to your head..
the way you always buy the same regular sized strawberry shake..
the way you hold your shake as you pay the sales lady behind the counter in the caf..
the way you go and buy a jamaican pattie after you finish one third of your shake..
the way you walk across the quad, oblivious...

i wish i could just DIE
knowing that you'll never know how much i LOVE you..

i sit here, at the back of class
writing little notes to you..

notes that i won't ever be able to give
because to you,
i don't even EXIST.

sometimes
i wish i could be one of those girls
who sit at your table during lunch
gabbing away at how impossible it is to find
a decent, below 20 calorie lunch
that could be publicly eaten..

just so i could sit next to you and breath your air..

sometimes
i want to knock of a few hundred points off my IQ
just so i could "fit in" to your crowd..

sometimes
i wish i could just run away with you
and relive all those romantic love stories
about Happily Ever After..

sometimes
i want to stop myself
from falling
deeper
and
deeper
in LOVE with you..

but i can't.